Mind Battles

Blessings,
Kristin

"I Don't Care"

This whole year my life has completely changed. From having my grandma pass away to leaving the school and town I was raise up in. Honestly, I have kept a good attitude about it.. For the most part. But in the past few months I have not been. 

Honestly, I think the pain became more real and.. I started to push out the pain as best as I could. Ignore it. Unfortunately, this didn't have the effect that I thought it would. I've grown a little cold. I have caught myself becoming careless about what I'm thinking. Over and over I have been telling myself, "I don't care." 

After "not caring" I guess you could say I started to believe that I didn't care. After this.. I started to become more numb than ever. 

Now, I believe that everyone has a moment like this or two.. Where they feel like a robot or that they are in a dream. I have had this happen to me. But this... This is something completely different. 

Have you ever went in an out? You felt as if you were floating and the world was not there? Blank mind.. No feelings. Nothing. 

Yep.. That's what I'm talking about. That has been me the past month or so. It just kept getting worse and worse. 

Honestly, I don't know if anyone will even read this... Considering I haven't posted very many frequent posts on this blog. But if you are reading, keep listening. What I am about to say may do something in you.

Sometimes I would feel everything.. And it would hurt. It's like a simple emotion could wreck me. Other times I felt nothing at all. My mind would go blank, and then I snap out of it. Yes, I am okay. I guess it just took me realizing something for me to see what was happening to me.

After opening up to a really good friend about what I was feeling, I realized that wha was happening to me was not all in my head. Honestly, I thought I was crazy. But, it turns out that he understood. He went through it, too. This completely changed my perspective. 

Days after this, I opened up to three other people that I trusted about what had been happening. All three of them had been through the same thing and understood me word for word. I think this is what woke me up. I am not crazy. I am not alone.

The devil does that a lot. It's one of his things.. To make us feel alone. Even if we aren't sitting there thinking, "Gee, I'm alone," we could still be believing the lie that we are. When we think we are alone, we shut people and anything out. 

I don't even know if I am read to post this yet, considering I am still figuring this out. But, I'm going to do it anyways.. Just in case someone is going through the same thing that I have been. If you feel numb.. You can still feel. If you can still feel... You're still here. If you're still here... You're here for a reason. Do NOT give up. 

If you are reading this and you felt God move in you and around you, or you have been dealing with this too... Feel free to share or message me in the comments below. Jesus is not a lie. He is real and by this you know that is true. 

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 

(James 1:2-3 NKJV)

Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. (James 5:16 NKJV)

Blessings, 

Kristin :*

Broken Pieces

The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. 

(Psalms 34:18 KJV)

Jesus, You truly did heal my heart. I was desperate for Love and You were there the whole time. Jesus forgive me, I need You. I plead the blood of JESUS CHRIST over every reader in Jesus name and I ask that you would show them Your Love for them. Fill us with hope and joy in Your mighty presence! I send angels to protect and minister to every reader in Jesus mame! We are broken without You, JESUS.. And by Yoyr stripes we are HEALED! I rebuke the devil away from us in JESUS NAME! FREE US FROM ALL BONDAGE IN JESUS NAME! Amen! 

Guilt Stinks. It's Time to Take Out The Trash!

You don't have to live in guilt. Everyday, being taunted with what you have done or what you've been through. And then you're thinking... "If you only knew, Kristin. I sin all the time. I'm messed up." Well you're right. You are messy.. and so am I.

Who said that we had to be perfect? I hope that I am not the first one to tell you that that isn't going to happen... you being perfect. Honestly, I mess up everyday. Yes, everyday. And I've had my fair share of messes. But, you see, Jesus knew about all that before He created us. Jeremiah 1:5 says, " Before I formed you in the belly I knew you; and before you came out of the womb I sanctified you, and I ordained you a prophet to the nations." In this scripture, Jesus was telling Jeremiah that He knew everything about him before He even made him. And that goes with us too. And that involves all of the sins we would do against Him and all the things we would go through. That didn't stop Jesus. He gives us the choice and still makes us. He wanted to make you.. and still wants you here.

Look, you're not what you've done. Don't expect yourself to be perfect.. because that will never happen. The most righteous person is still a messy human being that sins a lot. That's why WE NEED JESUS! He didn't put Himself in flesh upon the earth to die just to tell us that we are suppose to be good little kids! JESUS DIED BECAUSE HE WANTS TO FREE US FROM SIN, GUILT, AND DEATH! You can be FREE. In fact He wants you. Jesus wants you. Just the way you are, with all the sin and everything. He loves you the way you are but He doesn't want to leave you that way. Not one person is without sin... that's why we all need Jesus.

It's time to get rid of this stinky guilt and take out the trash. Brothers and sisters, If you would like any prayer on this subject or anything else, please feel free to email me! forChrist97@gmail.com 

Jesus, thank You. You're NOT a mean God. You didn't die on the cross to mock us. You died for us out of Love not hate. You want us free from this messed up world. I REBUKE THE DEVIL IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH! JESUS PLEASE TOUCH EVERY READER IN JESUS NAME AND MYSELF AND HELP US AWAKEN TO YOUR LOVE! You are NOT a mean God. You Love us. JESUS, YOU ARE LOVE! I send angels to protect and minister to us all in Jesus name! I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over us in Jesus name. Please, Lord, use this post to show people why You died for us. Not out of hate, but LOVE. You are beautiful Lord, and You want us to be FREE! I REBUKE THE DARKNESS THAT HAS COME AGAINST US IN JESUS NAME! I REBUKE SUICIDAL SPIRITS FROM US IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST! JESUS USE US TO TELL YOUR PEOPLE YOU LOVE THEM! IN JESUS NAME! AMEN! 

Say this out loud:

Hallelujah! I AM FREE IN JESUS NAME! DEVIL LEAVE ME AND MY LIFE AND FAMILY IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH!

Now take a deep breath. You are called to freedom.